Stuck

Ever get that feeling that you're just stuck standing in one place? That no matter what you do the world keeps rushing past you and you're still there and nothing has changed, yet everyone and everything around you is joyfull and happy and ever-changing?

That's how I feel right now.

It's FINALLY spring-like weather here, the trees have little leaves on them, the grass is green, flowers are blossoming, friends and neighbours are doing their spring cleaning, garage sales are abundant, and everyone's gearing up for their annual summer vacations and trips to the cottage. And what am I doing? Grasping at what remains of this past season's gymnastics events, trying to tie up loose ends, attempting to ignore the dishelvement that is my house, and wondering if I can even afford the time and the money to take a decent vacation.

I'm well aware that I got myself into the business of running my own gymnastics club. And for the most part, it's a dream come true. I love the girls I work with, and the parents are really quite supportive of the work that I want to do with their children. But man! It takes a lot of work! The season has barely ended and I'm already looking 1 and 2 years ahead in my planning, just to keep my brain straight. Yet at the same time I have to be looking to the immediate future of the club and organizing registration packages for returning gymnasts and coming up with advertising opportunities to spread the word about the club. It's a daunting task. Sure, I'd be all over it if I didn't have a full-time job, plus my PartyLite business, plus the health issues I'm continually trying to overcome. I'm finding it hard to even find the time in a day to take 5 mintues to myself!

I know, I know, I'm not the only one who has a busy life. Sometimes I just feel like there's not enough of me to go around. It's a struggle. I feel like the only stick in the quicksand that everyone's trying to hang on to, and lemme tell you, I'm not that strong of a stick, and one of these days it's going to break.

So, here I sit at my desk at work, attempting to wrap my brain around a write-up on sustainable building design, while listening to potential music for gymnastics routines, doodling costume designs in my note book, and wondering if I really have the time to go to the gym after work before coming home to read through my PartyLite newsletter and tackle fall registration forms. Wish me luck!